God, am I crazy yet?

Grab a Java. Find a seat. &, sip on some of this pipin' HOT tea!

Java junkies! It feels good to finally share with y'all for the first time since 2021.

I honestly didn't think I was worthy enough to even share my story, advice, or anything anymore. Staying silent felt that it was best; however, it made me feel dead inside. A lot has happened in my life and I wouldn't feel right moving forward without any updates. 

1.) I am still married. The pandemic made it extremely tough for us to simply get along - communicate, etc. I didn't think we would even get to this point; however, good said "not yet!' When praying and asking God for a sign on what to do next, I thought we were sure headed for divorce. And, I thought God was going to show me the steps to get there. Little did we know that on our 4th wedding anniversary, God would have us go on our 1st date and we would conceive a set of twins! If that wasn't a God-sized sign, I don't know what is!

2.) Our 2 additions have been the biggest blessings! While kids are a lot, and take way more than I feel I can give most days, these 2 have filled my heart beyond what I already knew to be possible. I am beyond grateful for them. They're teaching me to be a better mom— one that prioritizes family and places much-needed boundaries. In turn, all my kids have made me a better person than who I was before them.

3.) I’m over-involved...and I'm not mad about it! I work full-time. I'm a mom of 3...and a wife! I serve in professional organizations within my field. I co-founded an outreach ministry in my hometown. And, I'm assisting my husband in the startup of his own tree service company! Can we say that 2022 was extremely busy? Or, am I crazy for doing all this at the same time?

All in all, I am blessed! More importantly, through it all, I have had to learn to truly lean on God! Recently, I have found myself asking God, "am I crazy yet?” Why, would I ask this? First, I am unsure as to why he felt I could handle this load. Second, I keep adding to my plate and staying busy when I am sure that capacity was met a LONG time ago!

As I reflect, I know that I am not alone. Only God knows our true potential and our true maximum capacity. I thank him for the talent, skill, and ability. And, for the energy to fulfill it how he wants me to! I just want to remind you that you are that Girl (or guy). God hasn't forsaken you. He is right with you. Let him in the driver seat, and watch him work. You'll be amazed at what he does in your life when you let him have full control. I promise you, the fresh start is worth it!

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭3‬:‭5‬-‭6‬ ‭ESV‬‬

With love,

Jalesha

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